Goddamn this voice inside my head
I don’t know about everyone else, but I feel like I have my own personal radio station that is always playing in the back of my mind. Sometimes it’s from songs that I hear in real life, other times it’s just random stuff. But the absolute worst?
Songs that get stuck in my head! Usually these are songs I absolutely hate. For example, that song by Meatloaf “I would do anything for love” I absolutely hate that song.. but it’s kinda catchy so it sticks with me and will play on repeat for days
Turning into my parents?
As for more recent music. I hate to say it, but now I know how my parents felt when I started playing Rancid for them on road trips. I definitely have songs and certain bands from my 20s that I liked. Even a few songs from the past few years. If I had been younger, Gerard Way would have been my favorite teenage crush and soundtrack to my numerous broken heart and angry little girl moments.
But for the most part I just can’t find anything I like anymore. Maybe cuz, I’m older now and don’t relate to teenage love songs? Maybe because rap music now makes no sense to me? It seems to lack the storytelling that the older songs had. Or maybe I just can’t quite understand the slang they use nowadays or the issues that they address in a lot of songs. Maybe it just happens to everyone as they get older. They get caught up on the music they grew up listening to and they just don’t have any interest in exploring the new styles. Who knows?
What would you think my favorite music genre is?
FTR:
I know it seems like my music preference tends towards the punk rock genre given the recent songs that are featured in this list and my other posts. I definitely am a fan, out of all my phases growing up I think the punk stage was by far the one that influenced me the most. Especially with music.
BUT…
I pretty much love all genres of music! I grew up listening to what my parents liked, mainly 60s and 70s bands. Stevie Nicks is still a favorite, even now. The 80s brought MTV and watching actual music videos! Madonna was another favorite, but only her early stuff when she was still slutty. Plus heavy metal hair bands! Metallica, Motley Crue, even Poison.
The 90s were my teenage years and I went through all the phases from gangsta girl to hippie bitch. Loved Dr Dre and Snoop, fuck I remember when both albums came out. (My gangsta phase ended when I realized that I was nowhere near any ghettos 🤭) Then there was Eminem. His music was so different from most everything else and most mainstream music never addressed the stuff he rapped about.
Of course alternative rock like Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Alice in Chains, Bush and any number of flannel shirt wearing bands were a big thing too. For a while I even had my hippie phase and an obsession with the Grateful Dead, until Jerry died on me. Ironically I liked Widespread Panic but I never quite got into Phish. Though I had lots of fun in the parking lots of their concerts! But after finding my punk rock boys, the hippie thing was immediately dropped.
Oh! Lets not forget the girlie music, loved loved loved No Doubt and Gwen Stefani. Fiona Apple, certain songs by Tori Amos and obviously Alannis Morissette had the best break up song ever with “You Oughta Know”. Shery Crowe always was great for driving around and moping over boys. Though no band in any music genre was as good for heartbreak as my beloved Trent Reznor of NIN
The one band that seemed to transcend all the different crowds was Sublime. As a teenager, no matter who or where I was hanging out, if Sublime was put on nobody ever complained. The surfer punk kids, the downtown hard-core punks, hippie kids, country music rednecks, even the gangsta wannabes were always down with listening to Sublime. It seemed to be universally liked!
The only exception to my love of music is country music, even though I am a sweet southern girl I never could get into it. For the most part country music is sad and depressing 😥 that song by Dixie Chicks, “Traveling Soldier” automatically makes me start horrible, ugly, snotting everywhere crying. There’s a few songs I like, but not many. The ones I do like are definitely more old school.
2023 Soundtrack so far:
In no particular order, the current songs that have been playing in my head for the past few weeks.
- “The answer is still no”
No Use For A Name
And if you were young again, would you do
It different?
Or make your way just trying to find
The fiction in the fact of life?
Try to believe the words that you said to me are true
But something else assures me I’m not through
Been denied so many times and so I’m told to
Sit back and ignore the truth
Enjoy the ride
Never took a hand with her to school
Take a guess then tell us who’s the fool
And you’re not supposed to be my responsibility
One day you’ll regain your pride
And realise life is too short not to try - “Matchbook”
Strung Out
And it’s easy to forget your face
And It’s easy to survive in this place without you, without you
I just comb my hair and wash my face
Keep straight ahead and keep my pace
Don’t think about nothing
I might never be alright!
Well I got my friends I got my pen
I got a million distractions to keep me warm
And I know is that I’ll be alright
And I’ll be alright - “Her name in blood”
Strung Out
And blow a kiss
When you only think of me
Hold my hand and fuck away this blankness of expression
And all sorrows in between
Her name in blood and her eyes on me
Her deepest secret lies in front of me
A whisper now is all that remains of me
You’re the center of my unholy shrine
Scar tissue in time you’re all mine
You’re the last hint of self-control
My last chance just walked out the door - “ON THE OUTSIDE”
No Use For A Name
I’ll see you on the outside and we’ll never be the same
after all that’s happened what is it that we’ve gained?
I’ve made mistakes before and never lived them down
after all you’ve done for me I’m bound
(Don’t say another word)
To see you on the outside where we can both be sane
(You’re speaking for yourself)
I’m bleeding on the inside a place you might have been
but now I know I’ll never be the same - “Vampire”
Strung Out
Some say in the darkest places, love can grow
This solitary romance we’ll never know
Well it’s this coffin break I’m staging to the road that leads me back to you
Will be the miracle I gave up everything to only be with you
Can’t seem to shake the loneliest curse of all
Eternity with just a memory
I’ve seen your picture a million times three sixes and a melody of
Singing vice and a varice in the chains you chose to be our dress - “Hope”
Descendants
So now you want perfection
I see your self-destruction
You don’t know what you want
It’s gonna take you years to find out
I’m not giving up
And when you’ve had enough
You’ll take your bruised little head, and you’ll come running back to me
You know that I’m gonna be the only one - IT COULDA BEEN ME”
Social Distortion
I got friends who are in prison
Friends who are dead
I’m gonna tell ya something
That I’ve often said
You know these things that happen
That’s just the way it’s supposed to be
And I can’t help but wonder
Don’t ya know it coulda been me
Well, I had me a good girl
Her kisses sweeter than wine
And I had always hoped
That someday I’d make her mine
But she ran off and married
That’s just the way it’s supposed to be
And I can’t help but wonder
Don’t ya know it coulda been me - “Justified Black Eye”
No Use For A Name
Every single knockout dragout
Fight they ever had.
Apologies and dignity denied he starts to
Laugh he starts to lie with
Suddenly psychotic eyes.
Every night she cried herself to sleep
She didn’t recognize
Her own face in the mirror black & blue,
So afraid Intimidation like a child she hides away
He would always try to justify what wasn’t true - “My right”
Screeching Weasel
No matter what I do to you
It’s always one big mistake
Well I’m sick of you, I know I’m right
You sleazy, money-grubbing fake
My right, my life, my mind, my soul, my body, my existence
Means that I don’t have to listen to you
It’s my right, ’cause I’m a human being
I can’t believe you’re telling me
What’s good for me, how do you know what’s good
And I can’t believe you’re telling me
What to believe, get away from me
My right
My right to say what I want
And think the way I want to think
My right, I want to speak my mind
My right to yell, my right to scream
My right, my life, my mind, my soul, my body, my existence
Means that I don’t have to listen to you
It’s my right, ’cause I’m a human being - “Antimanifesto”
Propaghandi
But I will remain until this self-awareness fades
Until I defeat the purpose of this soapbox
That you made
That you made
Hope, perseverance, a vision (some doubt)
Green ink, a two-six, a bad case of big-mouth
A sum of our parts and I’ve never laughed harder
A song in our hearts and I’ve never laughed harder
It don’t really matter ‘cuz nothing’s ever felt as right as this
By the way, I stole this riff - “Linoleum”
Pennywise
Where everything important to me
Just seems to fall right down my leg
And onto the floor
My closest friend linoleum
Linoleum
Supports my head
Gives me something to believe
That’s me on the beachside, combin’ the sand
Metal meter in my hand
Sportin’ a pocket full of change
That’s me in the street with a violin under my chin
Playin’ with a grin
Singin’ gibberish
That’s me on the back of the bus
That’s me in the cell
That’s me inside your head
That’s me inside your head - “Nihilism”
Rancid
I was so full of scotch I could not stand up
I was hittin the shots and I moved to a cup
Release me from moral assumption
Total rejection total destruction
Nihilistic feelings are movin
If you try really hard
You’ll see right through them
(Nihilism, nihilism, nihilism, nihilism)
Come into the union district
Drive down in Sharmon Palms
White ghettos paint a picture
Broken homes and broken bones
Raking a path of self destruction
Not affected by the repercusions
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